the evolution of thought

you need to read what shem has to say. his blog > www.blackboxentries.blogspot.com < has a very interesting video of a rising christian movement. this group is teaching children the traditional christian faith and then turning them into "god's army". they look like they are preparing for war. this group sends these kids to "bible camp" to teach them about their faith. these camps are also set up to counter camps in the middle east (that i haven't heard about until now) that are teaching kids how to fight. this group is also growing big enough that it pretty much already controls the majority of congress and the rest of the government.

i guess im not really afraid tho, eventhough im not a christian like this "army" will be. yeah, if they control the government, all non-christians will probly be persecuted. shit happens. yeah, they are going to be big. they are gonna grow. sure there might be a fight, and they are probly keep the current fight in the middle east going for a very long time, until they feel they are in control. but mother nature always evens itself out. something will surely rise up and take there place. it always happens, its already happen about half a million times throughout history. when they are gone, things will be different, not necessarily bad, just different. and i hope im there to see it.

i think history is interesting. to follow how things happened and to see how today is the way it is. it's also interesting to go the other way and try to follow and see where things will end up. you can also follow people's thoughts throughout history. historically people tend to turn to religion in times of war and tragedy and when they are just generally afraid or overwhelmed. it helped to explain the things that didn't make sense to them in their world. these people almost seem so afraid of the world today and what's happening that they've not only turned to religion to help but they've gone even farther and created an army to "protect" themselves and make them feel safer. just my thoughts...

(by the way, sorry if my thoughts seem scattered, blogger was having some problems and so i've had to write this three times before it worked)

trapped

skool starts tomorrow. summer's over. im feelin a little depressed. i still have 2 years left before i'm done with high school. summer went way too fast. why is it that we know what to do only after the fact? so many things i wish i'd done. everyone i've talked to has said that their 3 months off were really boring. everyone. everyone was bored all summer long. that makes me think of all the parties i could've tried to throw and the number of people that would've gone could've been decent. i dont kno... maybe next summer i'll find away to have a little more fun, and maybe even keep everyone else from being so bored too. that'd be sweet

subconscious injury

about a month ago i was out riding my t-bord (www.tierneyrides.com) in madison. i found a really nice, smooth street to go down that didn't have any traffic. the catch was that the road wasn't finished it ended in what seemed to be soft grass and loose dirt. i walked halfway up the hill to try it out the first time. i knew that i'd have to carve really tight and hard to keep my speed down because of the lack of a run off at the end. i started my descent. the street was beautiful: extremely smooth and unfinished. my parents had parked the van at the bottom kinda close to the grassy part. i got close to the van and realized that i had way to much speed to even try to bleed any more. i braced for impact and tried to land in the "soft grassy dirt". the bord stopped, and from what my dad said i flew about ten feet through the air. the "soft grassy dirt" turned out to be mostly rocks. i quickly got up and my parents took me to UW Madison Hospital. i ended up with a concussion, had a CT scan done and threw up a couple of times the next day. the worst part is that i cant mountainboard, t-bord, or even try to skatebord for at least a month.
... and now for the part i didn't tell the doctors or my family. the weirdest part of the fall was that as soon as i had gotten up i felt like i had seen the scene before in a dream. it seemed like i knew everything that was going to happen next. it was really fricking annoying. and on the way to the hospital, while i was having my memory losses every five minutes, i could remember just about every dream i had had for the last month or so. it was so weird. it was almost like i was thinking through my subconscious while my conscious part of my brain was still trying to recover from the fall. the dreams were so vivid, tho, kinda like when you just wake up you can still remember what happened in your dream, but every dream that i could remember was like that. kinda weird but cool

inescapably small

once long ago, i was off snowboarding or hiking or whatever it was doing, and i collapsed and fell to the ground. i was lying there staring at the nearly pitch black night sky with only very, very faint stars, and i took it all in all at once. at that moment i felt very distant and detached from my body. i stared deeper and deeper into the universe. i felt as though i could see forever, far to the other end of the galaxy, and past that. bigger and bigger i saw. seeing farther and farther. then realizing where i was i went back. smaller and smaller to where i was lying on the ground. i saw how increadibly small i was... i nearly sh!t my pants. but then i let go. i saw and accepted that i was so small that it really doesn't matter what i or anybody else does. yeah, i know, this sounds really cliched and cheesy, but so what. i kinda liked the feeling, just complete bliss, not a care about anything at all. it was almost a religious experience. so, yeah, if anyone reading this hasn't tried this, you really need to. it puts everything into perspective.

headless leaders

there is song by a farely famous band with a line that goes "why don't presidents fight the war, why do they always send the poor". i've put some thought to this. what if we did have presidents who lead the troops into battle? the country would be less likely to be involved in as many wars just "because we can", as Cheney said. yeah, it would be true that our presidents might be a little more barbaric and warmongering, but at least they would know what they were doing a little more. i'm not saying i would want the government to be controlled by the military, just that i'm tired of having a president in office that doesn't seem to put much thought into what he does. it seems as though hes only trying to get votes for his party and gain popularity, not trying to do whats best for this country, just what's best for himself. so, here's to president Bush and the entire grand old party shaping up and getting out of office in the next couple weeks, because ya gotta remember that their calendar is completely different than everyone elses: the troops will be in iraq 3 months and they are still there 4 years later. so if Bush and his party get their act together now they might just be out by 2008.